Saturday, August 13, 2011

EMOTINAL BABBLINGS


_bakit kaya pagdating sa love, yung kabaliktaran mo ang napupunta sayo?
_bakit yung matino napupunta sa bad?
_bakit yung palaging bigo, papupunta sa naglalaro?
_bakit yung mabait napupunta sa pasaway?
_alam mo kasi, pag ibinigay sayo ang katulad mo… hindi ka matututo magbago para sa isang tao…
_di mo malalaman ang mali sayo, at pag walang nabago sayo, di mo malalaman kung nagmamahal ka nga ng totoo.

I received this quote just a little before dawn today…kahit punong-puno pa ako ng laway at morning glory (eewww) at super half asleep pa ako dahil sa pagod at san mig light, ang utak ko eh talagang rumatsada na nang pag-analyze sa message na eto. Di ko alam kung bakit… its either natatamaan ako or siguro wala lng, trip lng ng utak kong mag-isip well anyway, basta right at this instance ang dami pumapasok sa isip ko na realizations and I know pag hindi ko isinulat yun eh mawawala na yun totally pag natulog ulit ako. Kaya ayun open agad ng laptop at type ng bilis to the max, yung tipong pwede nang ma-ticketan for overspeeding. so ayun may excuse na ako if may mga wrong grammar ako ditetch huh…hehehe
Una kong realization was, why do we always have to question the experiences/ situations we are in or those we have already been through, whether it is in the arena of love, career, academe or friendship? Halos kasi puro ganun yung laman ng message na yun sa taas oh, pansin nyo ba? But most perplexing to me is kung bakit nagtatanong lng tayo pag negative yung nararanasan natin, bakit pag nanalo ba sa lotto do we question ourselves “hey dapat nga ba akong manalo nito?” or when we get promoted do we ask if worthy nga ba tayong ma-promote? Pero pag negative experience na eh andami nang barrage of questions na nabubuo sa utak natin like yung sa abovementioned na text quote. Im not saying na mali eto, but then again dapat kasi balanced yun eh, we should not only focus on contemplating the why’s of the negativities in our lives but also the why’s of positive things that we encounter should be also scrutinized with equality so that we, as individuals of rational thinking, would know which things we are doing right and which things we are doing wrong. Kasi if puro na lang yung negative side, we tend to be so pessimistic and this would lead to becoming a person who is easily depressed, if puro naman positive side then we become overly egoistic and prideful which is actually dreadful. Ayy naku I hope im making a point here…
Second point na na-realize ko is about the person as an individual in connection to the process of personal change. Sabi sa quote “alam mo kasi, pag ibinigay sayo ang katulad mo… hindi ka matututo magbago para sa isang tao…” I really wouldn’t agree with this statement. Do we need another person to change us from within? I say, we don’t. You know why, because we are INDIVIDUALS. Yes I would admit na no man is an island pa rin naman…but to change our habits and mannerisms with the help of others? I doubt it, maybe we can expect help from people to poke us in the right direction of change, but the process of changing… it’s of our own free will, our own prerogative to change it. If a person truly wants to change then he should do it for his own sake because he wants to and not because he is being dictated by others. Sino ba naman kasi ang mas nakakakilala sa mga sarili natin kundi tayo mismo diba…?
another thing pa na napagnilaynilayan ko is yung part ng quote na sabi “alam mo kasi, pag ibinigay sayo ang katulad mo… hindi ka matututo magbago para sa isang tao…” it implies kasi na matututo ka if na-experience mo na yung bagay na yan kasi kelangang mag depend pa yung learnings mo dun sa isang tao na ma-mimeet mo thus it will depend on the experiences the two of you would and could make together, as in direct experience hah, bakit diba pwedeng mapanalaminan ang mga nangyayari sa ibang tao? kaya nga may word na OBSERVE diba… kasi pwede tayong mag-observe sa ibang tao. pwede namang makita mo sa situation nang ibang tao ang consequences ng mga ginawa nya ah, so then we could rationalize na…ah ok pwede ganito mangyari, pwedeng ganito kalabasan nito if gagawin ko to, so makikita na natin yung different angles nun kahit din na natin i-experience yun and then we could apply it in our lives. kaya lng minsan gusto talaga natin ng first hand experience tapos after everything else, if mag-fail na or negative yung results iiyak iyak na, or minsan i-blame pa sa iba..tsk cant we take accountability for our own actions?!! kelangan ba talaga may escape goats pa. exasperating to hah. hay naku dala lng talaga siguro to ng kaantukan at dami ng nainom ko sa xmas party knina, but anyway, borlog na nga muna ulit ako kasi baka dream pa eto.hehehe

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