i have accidentally stumbled upon the blogspot of a former boardmate, i wont name drop, but she is actually a doctor already and sadly she also has the big C... Cancer. reading that single word is quite incomprehensible for me...how could this wonderful woman be suffering from such a fatal disease? i couldnt begin to comprehend what plans God has for her... but im quite happy to know that my brave ate is not giving up and is courageously battling the big C up to this very moment... i pray for her to get well soon... and yet i also have to pray for myself for i am afraid i might also have to fight the big C. Thinking about it makes me shake my head as if to ward off the possibility, but at least i have ate M to look up to as my inspiration. I know she is a fighter and whatever the results of my own lab examination, i'll be as positive as ate M. Now all i have to do is wait for the results... :( May God be with us.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
MGA KWENTONG BITTER
mga kwentong bitter.
by Holy Victory on Tuesday, December 15, 2009 at 11:40am
[P]ara sa mga single at taken. Para sa mga kababaihang iniwan, niloko, sinaktan, tinake for granted, pinaasa, pinagpalit, pinaghintay sa wala, tinwo time, inapi, kinawawa, inabuso, at higit sa lahat para sa mga walang magawa. parang ako. ;)
tips para di ka magsisi sa huli:
• kung di ka willing masaktan, habang nanliligaw pa lang xa eh patigilin mo na. kakambal ng pagmamahal ang sakit at sakripisyo. mas maganda kung i-enjoy mo muna ang buhay single. mahirap na bumalik sa mundo ng single nang hindi ka injured. suportahan mo kami. NO TO BOYS!
• isipin mo ang history ng manliligaw mo. kung mabilis xa magpalit at magsawa noon, nako. mag-isip ka na. di tayo mga damit na kapag madumi na eh magpapalit lang.
• pwede ring itanong mo yung dahilan ng break up nila ng ex niya. mas maganda kung alam mu yung panig nilang dalawa. malay mo nagsisinungaling yung isa. diba? haha. dun mo malalaman kung good boy nga xa o hindi,.
• kung first ka man nya, siguraduhin mo na mature enough na xa para sa commitment. hindi lng kasal ang bawal iluwa pag-mainit. tandaan mo yan.
• siguraduhin mo na naka-pagmove on na talaga xa sa ex nya ha! nako. wala akong masabi sa mga lalaking ganito.
• wag na wag kang maniniwala sa mga sinasabi nya. sabihin mo na ipakita nya by actions hindi sa mga mabubulaklak na salita lamang.
• hindi porke pinagkakagastusan ka niya ng pera at oras niya ngaun eh mahal ka na niya. sira! mag-isip ka nga. baka di mo alam ang pera at oras na mauubos mo kapag iniwan ka nyan. tsk. tsk.
• di porke pinili ka nya ngaun eh ikaw na talaga ang mahal niya. siguro he just chose you for now as a spare tire kasi ayaw sa kanya nung mahal niya.
• wag kang magbibigay ng alam mong pagsisisihan mo lang. wag mong ibigay ang mga bagay na di mo na mababawi kelanman. wag mong ibigay lahat. in short, tikim tikim lang.. hahahaha
• mag-ingat sa mga libre at bigay sayo. baka pag tapos na ang lahat sa inyo at magsumbatan kayo, e magulat ka na lang na loan pala yun at kelangan mong bayaran. may tubo pa.
• kung nag-iisip ka ng pwedeng iregalo sa kanya, tip ko sayo eh picture nyo. ung malaki huh! ung super happy kayong dalawa. ung PINAKA maganda nyong pic ever. para kapag naghiwalay kayo at sa tuwing nakikita nya un eh manghihinayang siya sayo na tipong masasabi niya sa sarili niya, SAYANG pinakawalan ko pa etong perfect na girl na eto. Oh well, his loss… hahahaha
• bumili ka ng katalinuhan. oo, tanga ka pero wag mong abusuhin ang prebilehiyo ng pagiging t*nga. sayang naman ang paghihirap ng magulang mo kung magpapakat*nga ka sa walang kwentang lalaki.
• mag-imbak ka ng kahihiyan at awa sa sarili mo. kelangan un.
• wag akuin ang di mo kasalanan. kapag nasanay xa, aabusuhin niya yun. magmumukha kang LOSER…ewww.
• lagi mong tandaan na kung mahal ka talaga niya, hindi kailanman sasagi sa isip nya na saktan ka. kung tunay syang lalaki, may paki siya sa nararamdaman niya at sa relasyon niyo.
TANDAAN MO pagdating sa break up:
• pag sinabi nilang kelangan nila ng time ang ibig sabihin nun e kailangan nila ng time para makapag-hanap. di totoong hahanapin nila sarili nila. ibang bagay ang gusto nilang hanapin. at di nila nahanap yun sayo.
• “kaya sila gumagawa ng stupid reasons kasi ayaw nila tayong masaktan…”
• “…pero hindi nila alam mas nasasaktan tayo ng bonggang bongga!” –sabi ng taong itago na lang natin sa pangalang LIIT.
• pag sinabi na nilang namimiss na nila ang sarili nila, ibig sabihin nun nasasakal na sila sayo. madami ka sigurong limitations. marami xang di nagagawa dahil sayo, ganun kasimple yun.
• kaya nambababae ang mga lalaki ay dahil sawa na sila sau. gusto nila mag-explore ng iba.
• lahat ng lalaki tumitingin sa iba. tama ang nabasa mo. LAHAT. di man nila aminin pero ganun yun. darating at darating ang point na mapapatingin sila sa iba. pero yung iba hanggang tingin lang. un ang good boy!!! pero totoo nga un. kaya nga tayo may peripheral vision diba? para di mahalata na nasa iba yung tingin. tama ba? tsaka sadyang ginawa ang mata ng mga lalaki na mabilis. well, ginawa naming mabilis ang utak ng mga babae. hahaha!
tips kapag nagsisi ka na:
• hello?!! di pa katapusan ng mundo. THERE ARE MANY FISH IN THE SEA. maganda ka. maniwala ka sa nanay mo.
• normal na umiyak ka. pero wag naman sa harap niya na with matching tulo pa ng sipon ha. ampanget swear!!!
• wag kang makikinig sa mga slow na song na tipong sinasampal sayo yung mga lyrics.
• maniwala ka sa kasabihang “new haircut, new boyfriend” baka naman hiniwalayan ka dahil sa buhok mong chakanez dot com.
• wag kang magpuyat sa kakaiyak. baka madaig mo pa ang patay sa lalim ng mata mo. maawa ka naman sa sarili mo.
• wag kang magmukmok. lumabas kayo ng friends mo. malay mo nasa mall ang man of your dreams.
• wag mo siyang burahin sa Y!m at friendster mo. pustahan di ka makakatiis nyan. di mo mapipigilang magtanong sa kaibigan mo kung anong stat msg niya, kung ol ba xa, kung sino nag-cocoments sa kanya at sino mga featured friends niya. sira! nang-iistorbo ka sa buhay ng may buhay. bura bura epek ka pa dyan eh kabisado mo naman. ikaw yung pagmumukhang pathetic sa pag-add mo uli sa kanya.
• wag na wag kang magpapapansin sa Y!m. wag ka maglalagay ng mga paawa epek na stat msg or magON and OFFline ng ilang beses. ikaw lang magmumukhang tanga. para kang si yaya… LOSER!
• iwasan din maglagay ng mga bitter quotes at special mentions. yung tipong nagpapatama tapos idadaan sa group message! sabihin mo nlng kaya sa harap niya.
• wag mo na din itry burahin yung number nya. alam nating lahat na kabisado mo yan.
• tandaan mo na tao lang xa. hindi xa perpekto. hindi xa hangin na kelangan mo sa araw araw at minuminuto. kung yaw mo maniwala..ayyy adik ka na talaga.
• wag sasabak sa sumbatan ng wala kang armas at kung alam mong dehado ka. para din yang intermission number. bongga ka kung may hayop kang entrance at exit diba?!!
• kung gusto mo talagang magpakamatay, bahala ka. lugi ka noh. lam mo kung bakit? dahil sa dami dami ng lalaki sa mundo eh xa lang natikman mo. payag ka nun? explore girl! hahaha.
• wag kang iinom ng di mo kaya. wala kang mapapala. di mo malilimutan yung hapdi na ginawa niya sayo. ang tanging bagay lang na malilimutan mo eh yung mga kat*rantaduhang ginawa mo habang lasing ka. hindi masusulusyunan ng isa o kahit ilan pang bote ng alcohol yang problema mo.
• kung tips sa pagpapakamatay ang gusto mo, ang pinakamagandang solusyon ay ang pagpapanggap. yung tipong friends forever na kuno kayo. kwento nya yung bago niya. ipagyayabang niya kung gaano kaganda, kasexy, kabaet, katalino, kayaman, ka-sweet at lahat ng opposite sayo ung girl nya. anong kamatay matay dun? edi yung pagpapanggap mo na napakasaya mo para sa kanila kahit gusting gusto mo na silang hilahin sa impyerno.
• wag kang magpanggap na masaya ka. tanggapin mo na lang. kahit unti unti. wag kang maging plastic sa sarili mo. loka, baka magising ka na lang isang araw hindi mo na kilala kung sino ka. ala-SISA ba eto?! magpakatotoo ka na lng pero hinay hinay lang at baka may nasisipa ka na jan.
• wag kang maghahabol. wag kang umasang babalik pa yan. lalaki lang ulo niya. magiging feeling xa. gusto mo yun?
• hindi masarap ang pride. actually nakakalason. wala akong kilala na naging masaya sa pagkain ng pride niya.
• kung babalik yan, mag-ingat ka. kung nagawa nya sayo yun noon, kaya niyang gawin ulit yun. wag ka maniwala agad na nagbago at nagsisi na xa. mas masakit kapag second time na niloko ka niya.
• pero wag mo isara ang puso mo sa kanya. malay mo nagbago at narealize na niya ung pagkakamali niya… hmmmn ay wait..ERASE ERASE. be friends na lang.
• higit sa lahat, wag mong isasara ang puso mo sa ibang lalaki. wag mong sabihin na di ka na magmamahal ulit. sa ngayon siguro, oo, masasabi mo yan. pero pag may nakasabay kang gwapong lalaki sa jeep eh parang nalimutan mo na isnumpa mo ang lahat kalalakihan. maiisip mo ‘ di naman siguro lahat ng lalaki tulad ng ex ko…’ hahaha sira! malandi talaga.
ooopps! wag kayong magalet! wala kaming nagawang masama, naglalabas lang ng saloobin. side lang yun ng mga inapi…hahahah
sorry boys. love y’all. harhar.
no guys in particular…yes no maybe. :)
On a more serious note though, lahat ng mga nabanggit sa taas are actually also applicable to boys na inapi naman ng ilang girls… admittedly kasi even girls can hurt the guys…
hehehe let’s just love and respect one another na lng po. let us all be mature when handling relationships because all of us are capable of both hurting and getting hurt, so let’s tread cautiously on each other’s feelings and emotions.
tips para di ka magsisi sa huli:
• kung di ka willing masaktan, habang nanliligaw pa lang xa eh patigilin mo na. kakambal ng pagmamahal ang sakit at sakripisyo. mas maganda kung i-enjoy mo muna ang buhay single. mahirap na bumalik sa mundo ng single nang hindi ka injured. suportahan mo kami. NO TO BOYS!
• isipin mo ang history ng manliligaw mo. kung mabilis xa magpalit at magsawa noon, nako. mag-isip ka na. di tayo mga damit na kapag madumi na eh magpapalit lang.
• pwede ring itanong mo yung dahilan ng break up nila ng ex niya. mas maganda kung alam mu yung panig nilang dalawa. malay mo nagsisinungaling yung isa. diba? haha. dun mo malalaman kung good boy nga xa o hindi,.
• kung first ka man nya, siguraduhin mo na mature enough na xa para sa commitment. hindi lng kasal ang bawal iluwa pag-mainit. tandaan mo yan.
• siguraduhin mo na naka-pagmove on na talaga xa sa ex nya ha! nako. wala akong masabi sa mga lalaking ganito.
• wag na wag kang maniniwala sa mga sinasabi nya. sabihin mo na ipakita nya by actions hindi sa mga mabubulaklak na salita lamang.
• hindi porke pinagkakagastusan ka niya ng pera at oras niya ngaun eh mahal ka na niya. sira! mag-isip ka nga. baka di mo alam ang pera at oras na mauubos mo kapag iniwan ka nyan. tsk. tsk.
• di porke pinili ka nya ngaun eh ikaw na talaga ang mahal niya. siguro he just chose you for now as a spare tire kasi ayaw sa kanya nung mahal niya.
• wag kang magbibigay ng alam mong pagsisisihan mo lang. wag mong ibigay ang mga bagay na di mo na mababawi kelanman. wag mong ibigay lahat. in short, tikim tikim lang.. hahahaha
• mag-ingat sa mga libre at bigay sayo. baka pag tapos na ang lahat sa inyo at magsumbatan kayo, e magulat ka na lang na loan pala yun at kelangan mong bayaran. may tubo pa.
• kung nag-iisip ka ng pwedeng iregalo sa kanya, tip ko sayo eh picture nyo. ung malaki huh! ung super happy kayong dalawa. ung PINAKA maganda nyong pic ever. para kapag naghiwalay kayo at sa tuwing nakikita nya un eh manghihinayang siya sayo na tipong masasabi niya sa sarili niya, SAYANG pinakawalan ko pa etong perfect na girl na eto. Oh well, his loss… hahahaha
• bumili ka ng katalinuhan. oo, tanga ka pero wag mong abusuhin ang prebilehiyo ng pagiging t*nga. sayang naman ang paghihirap ng magulang mo kung magpapakat*nga ka sa walang kwentang lalaki.
• mag-imbak ka ng kahihiyan at awa sa sarili mo. kelangan un.
• wag akuin ang di mo kasalanan. kapag nasanay xa, aabusuhin niya yun. magmumukha kang LOSER…ewww.
• lagi mong tandaan na kung mahal ka talaga niya, hindi kailanman sasagi sa isip nya na saktan ka. kung tunay syang lalaki, may paki siya sa nararamdaman niya at sa relasyon niyo.
TANDAAN MO pagdating sa break up:
• pag sinabi nilang kelangan nila ng time ang ibig sabihin nun e kailangan nila ng time para makapag-hanap. di totoong hahanapin nila sarili nila. ibang bagay ang gusto nilang hanapin. at di nila nahanap yun sayo.
• “kaya sila gumagawa ng stupid reasons kasi ayaw nila tayong masaktan…”
• “…pero hindi nila alam mas nasasaktan tayo ng bonggang bongga!” –sabi ng taong itago na lang natin sa pangalang LIIT.
• pag sinabi na nilang namimiss na nila ang sarili nila, ibig sabihin nun nasasakal na sila sayo. madami ka sigurong limitations. marami xang di nagagawa dahil sayo, ganun kasimple yun.
• kaya nambababae ang mga lalaki ay dahil sawa na sila sau. gusto nila mag-explore ng iba.
• lahat ng lalaki tumitingin sa iba. tama ang nabasa mo. LAHAT. di man nila aminin pero ganun yun. darating at darating ang point na mapapatingin sila sa iba. pero yung iba hanggang tingin lang. un ang good boy!!! pero totoo nga un. kaya nga tayo may peripheral vision diba? para di mahalata na nasa iba yung tingin. tama ba? tsaka sadyang ginawa ang mata ng mga lalaki na mabilis. well, ginawa naming mabilis ang utak ng mga babae. hahaha!
tips kapag nagsisi ka na:
• hello?!! di pa katapusan ng mundo. THERE ARE MANY FISH IN THE SEA. maganda ka. maniwala ka sa nanay mo.
• normal na umiyak ka. pero wag naman sa harap niya na with matching tulo pa ng sipon ha. ampanget swear!!!
• wag kang makikinig sa mga slow na song na tipong sinasampal sayo yung mga lyrics.
• maniwala ka sa kasabihang “new haircut, new boyfriend” baka naman hiniwalayan ka dahil sa buhok mong chakanez dot com.
• wag kang magpuyat sa kakaiyak. baka madaig mo pa ang patay sa lalim ng mata mo. maawa ka naman sa sarili mo.
• wag kang magmukmok. lumabas kayo ng friends mo. malay mo nasa mall ang man of your dreams.
• wag mo siyang burahin sa Y!m at friendster mo. pustahan di ka makakatiis nyan. di mo mapipigilang magtanong sa kaibigan mo kung anong stat msg niya, kung ol ba xa, kung sino nag-cocoments sa kanya at sino mga featured friends niya. sira! nang-iistorbo ka sa buhay ng may buhay. bura bura epek ka pa dyan eh kabisado mo naman. ikaw yung pagmumukhang pathetic sa pag-add mo uli sa kanya.
• wag na wag kang magpapapansin sa Y!m. wag ka maglalagay ng mga paawa epek na stat msg or magON and OFFline ng ilang beses. ikaw lang magmumukhang tanga. para kang si yaya… LOSER!
• iwasan din maglagay ng mga bitter quotes at special mentions. yung tipong nagpapatama tapos idadaan sa group message! sabihin mo nlng kaya sa harap niya.
• wag mo na din itry burahin yung number nya. alam nating lahat na kabisado mo yan.
• tandaan mo na tao lang xa. hindi xa perpekto. hindi xa hangin na kelangan mo sa araw araw at minuminuto. kung yaw mo maniwala..ayyy adik ka na talaga.
• wag sasabak sa sumbatan ng wala kang armas at kung alam mong dehado ka. para din yang intermission number. bongga ka kung may hayop kang entrance at exit diba?!!
• kung gusto mo talagang magpakamatay, bahala ka. lugi ka noh. lam mo kung bakit? dahil sa dami dami ng lalaki sa mundo eh xa lang natikman mo. payag ka nun? explore girl! hahaha.
• wag kang iinom ng di mo kaya. wala kang mapapala. di mo malilimutan yung hapdi na ginawa niya sayo. ang tanging bagay lang na malilimutan mo eh yung mga kat*rantaduhang ginawa mo habang lasing ka. hindi masusulusyunan ng isa o kahit ilan pang bote ng alcohol yang problema mo.
• kung tips sa pagpapakamatay ang gusto mo, ang pinakamagandang solusyon ay ang pagpapanggap. yung tipong friends forever na kuno kayo. kwento nya yung bago niya. ipagyayabang niya kung gaano kaganda, kasexy, kabaet, katalino, kayaman, ka-sweet at lahat ng opposite sayo ung girl nya. anong kamatay matay dun? edi yung pagpapanggap mo na napakasaya mo para sa kanila kahit gusting gusto mo na silang hilahin sa impyerno.
• wag kang magpanggap na masaya ka. tanggapin mo na lang. kahit unti unti. wag kang maging plastic sa sarili mo. loka, baka magising ka na lang isang araw hindi mo na kilala kung sino ka. ala-SISA ba eto?! magpakatotoo ka na lng pero hinay hinay lang at baka may nasisipa ka na jan.
• wag kang maghahabol. wag kang umasang babalik pa yan. lalaki lang ulo niya. magiging feeling xa. gusto mo yun?
• hindi masarap ang pride. actually nakakalason. wala akong kilala na naging masaya sa pagkain ng pride niya.
• kung babalik yan, mag-ingat ka. kung nagawa nya sayo yun noon, kaya niyang gawin ulit yun. wag ka maniwala agad na nagbago at nagsisi na xa. mas masakit kapag second time na niloko ka niya.
• pero wag mo isara ang puso mo sa kanya. malay mo nagbago at narealize na niya ung pagkakamali niya… hmmmn ay wait..ERASE ERASE. be friends na lang.
• higit sa lahat, wag mong isasara ang puso mo sa ibang lalaki. wag mong sabihin na di ka na magmamahal ulit. sa ngayon siguro, oo, masasabi mo yan. pero pag may nakasabay kang gwapong lalaki sa jeep eh parang nalimutan mo na isnumpa mo ang lahat kalalakihan. maiisip mo ‘ di naman siguro lahat ng lalaki tulad ng ex ko…’ hahaha sira! malandi talaga.
ooopps! wag kayong magalet! wala kaming nagawang masama, naglalabas lang ng saloobin. side lang yun ng mga inapi…hahahah
sorry boys. love y’all. harhar.
no guys in particular…yes no maybe. :)
On a more serious note though, lahat ng mga nabanggit sa taas are actually also applicable to boys na inapi naman ng ilang girls… admittedly kasi even girls can hurt the guys…
hehehe let’s just love and respect one another na lng po. let us all be mature when handling relationships because all of us are capable of both hurting and getting hurt, so let’s tread cautiously on each other’s feelings and emotions.
GOD'S PERFECT CHOICE
GOD'S PERFECT CHOICE
by Holy Victory on Tuesday, January 5, 2010 at 11:48am
January 4, 2010:
The first day of working day for the year 2010, and i was so busy with the chores i have to do for a special event to be held at my high school alma mater. With the chores done at last i had time to relax and let the news i just received this morning sink in to me...and slowly disappointment began creeping... tsk tsk tsk. i glimpsed at the teacher's table and saw tita era and ate iris facebooking <if such="" a="" term="" exists..hehehe=""> to their heart's content, so to ward off the disappointment i am feeling, i joined in and when i opened my friends' notes i saw this note shared by my previous boss from GSK and it sort of lifted my spirits even though its about love na naman, but still i was able to connect it way beyond love relationships...somehow it made me believe more sa kasabihang "everything happens for a reason." So do enjoy the read and i hope you too would be able to make some realizations out of this note.
GOD'S PERFECT CHOICE
Everyone would love to give herself/himself totally to someone
To have a deep soul relationship with another
To be loved thoroughly and exclusively
But God says:
“No, not yet. Not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and contented with being loved
By me alone, with giving yourself totally to me…
to have an intensely personal relationship with me alone.
I love you my child,
and until you discover that only in me will your satisfaction be found,
you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you.
You will never be united with me exclusive of anyone for anything else…
exclusive of desires and longings.
I want you to stop wishing, to stop planning. And allow me to give you
the most thrilling plan ever existing, one that you cannot imagine.
I want you to have the best.
Please allow me to bring it to you. Just keep watching me, expecting the greatest things.
Keep experiencing that satisfaction knowing that I can give you all...Keep listening and learning the things I tell you. You just wait.
Don’t be anxious. Don’t worry. Don’t keep looking off and away from me
or you’ll miss what I want to show you.
I want to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with me and you to enjoy concretely the everlasting union of beauty, perfection, and love that I offer you myself.
And then, when you are ready, I am working even to this minute
to have both of you ready at the same time.
Until you are both satisfied with being loved by me…
And thus perfect love.
And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love knowing that I love you utterly.
I am God Almighty.
Believe and be satisfied.
The first day of working day for the year 2010, and i was so busy with the chores i have to do for a special event to be held at my high school alma mater. With the chores done at last i had time to relax and let the news i just received this morning sink in to me...and slowly disappointment began creeping... tsk tsk tsk. i glimpsed at the teacher's table and saw tita era and ate iris facebooking <if such="" a="" term="" exists..hehehe=""> to their heart's content, so to ward off the disappointment i am feeling, i joined in and when i opened my friends' notes i saw this note shared by my previous boss from GSK and it sort of lifted my spirits even though its about love na naman, but still i was able to connect it way beyond love relationships...somehow it made me believe more sa kasabihang "everything happens for a reason." So do enjoy the read and i hope you too would be able to make some realizations out of this note.
GOD'S PERFECT CHOICE
Everyone would love to give herself/himself totally to someone
To have a deep soul relationship with another
To be loved thoroughly and exclusively
But God says:
“No, not yet. Not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and contented with being loved
By me alone, with giving yourself totally to me…
to have an intensely personal relationship with me alone.
I love you my child,
and until you discover that only in me will your satisfaction be found,
you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you.
You will never be united with me exclusive of anyone for anything else…
exclusive of desires and longings.
I want you to stop wishing, to stop planning. And allow me to give you
the most thrilling plan ever existing, one that you cannot imagine.
I want you to have the best.
Please allow me to bring it to you. Just keep watching me, expecting the greatest things.
Keep experiencing that satisfaction knowing that I can give you all...Keep listening and learning the things I tell you. You just wait.
Don’t be anxious. Don’t worry. Don’t keep looking off and away from me
or you’ll miss what I want to show you.
I want to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with me and you to enjoy concretely the everlasting union of beauty, perfection, and love that I offer you myself.
And then, when you are ready, I am working even to this minute
to have both of you ready at the same time.
Until you are both satisfied with being loved by me…
And thus perfect love.
And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love knowing that I love you utterly.
I am God Almighty.
Believe and be satisfied.
What i have learned from living in a dorm run by NUNS ---> from my friendster blog which is now defunct.
what i have learned from living in a dorm run by NUNS....
by Holy Victory on Monday, November 30, 2009 at 10:33pm
What Ive learned from living in SRLH dorm:
..dorm girls are not saints
..you can never have too many persons in 2 beds
(max. 10)
..guys you meet in restobars (e.g. halo,brix) are
not boyfriend material
..always put warning signs on your water bottle,
you never know when some dehydrated dormmate
will get it
..listen to your parents, most of the time they're
right
..not all food in the refectory looks edible
..charge your phone's batt even when it's not
empty yet, you don't want your battery dead in the
middle of the night while you're texting with your
crush/bf
..befriend the guard and portresses (comes with
added benefits)
..be as bad as you want to be, but remember to
put up a face when the sisters are around
.."sleeping over at a relative's house" is always a
good excuse for a girl's night-out
..when the nuns are away, the boarders and the
auxi's will play
..duplicate your room key, you never know when
you'll accidentally lock your room and you'll have
to go to sis.jo for a duplicate key, costing you P10
..you can always borrow something from someone
most of the time (except of course.. underwear!)
..befriend the manyak-looking cook (advantages:
extra food, food even when you're late for dinner
time)
..most dorm girls are girlfriend material
..boys are always a favorite topic among dorm girls
which leads of course to......
..the early bird gets the worm, the late bird gets all
the extra food
..you learn to do lotsa things when the TV is off
(e.g. yoga, tai chi crocheting)
..putting up a sari-sari store in a dorm is always
lucrative business although prohibited
..birthdays are always celebrated by the whole
dorm or the whole floor
..there are ghosts in dorms, they call you late at
night when you're cramming for an exam.
..don't stay up too late
..radios are a must to ebb the boredom away
..pancit canton cooked in hot water makes for a
good midnight snack
..you have ants, etc. for pets especially when you
got lotsa food around
..theres always someone who listens to your
stories no matter how boring they are
..wash your clothes and hang them in the fire exit
..the rooftop is a great party place, its like 4 floors
away from the sisters cloister..
..fire exits dont save you from the fire.. youll die
trying to escape the fire.. hehe! naka-lock eh
..you get some training in acting when the sisters
call you to ask why you did not ask for permission
when you slept out..
..dorm girls are not saints
..you can never have too many persons in 2 beds
(max. 10)
..guys you meet in restobars (e.g. halo,brix) are
not boyfriend material
..always put warning signs on your water bottle,
you never know when some dehydrated dormmate
will get it
..listen to your parents, most of the time they're
right
..not all food in the refectory looks edible
..charge your phone's batt even when it's not
empty yet, you don't want your battery dead in the
middle of the night while you're texting with your
crush/bf
..befriend the guard and portresses (comes with
added benefits)
..be as bad as you want to be, but remember to
put up a face when the sisters are around
.."sleeping over at a relative's house" is always a
good excuse for a girl's night-out
..when the nuns are away, the boarders and the
auxi's will play
..duplicate your room key, you never know when
you'll accidentally lock your room and you'll have
to go to sis.jo for a duplicate key, costing you P10
..you can always borrow something from someone
most of the time (except of course.. underwear!)
..befriend the manyak-looking cook (advantages:
extra food, food even when you're late for dinner
time)
..most dorm girls are girlfriend material
..boys are always a favorite topic among dorm girls
which leads of course to......
..the early bird gets the worm, the late bird gets all
the extra food
..you learn to do lotsa things when the TV is off
(e.g. yoga, tai chi crocheting)
..putting up a sari-sari store in a dorm is always
lucrative business although prohibited
..birthdays are always celebrated by the whole
dorm or the whole floor
..there are ghosts in dorms, they call you late at
night when you're cramming for an exam.
..don't stay up too late
..radios are a must to ebb the boredom away
..pancit canton cooked in hot water makes for a
good midnight snack
..you have ants, etc. for pets especially when you
got lotsa food around
..theres always someone who listens to your
stories no matter how boring they are
..wash your clothes and hang them in the fire exit
..the rooftop is a great party place, its like 4 floors
away from the sisters cloister..
..fire exits dont save you from the fire.. youll die
trying to escape the fire.. hehe! naka-lock eh
..you get some training in acting when the sisters
call you to ask why you did not ask for permission
when you slept out..
ABOUT ME...
About me? what about me? is it even necessary to get to know me? hehehe, syempre naman, you'd be missing a lot... (kapal eh) let's see
Let's begin first with the etymology of OLGA VICTORIA... bakit nga ba eto pangalan ko? para kasing pangalan pa lng pang-kontrabida na sa soap opera all rolled into one! pwede namang Cassandra, Alexandra or kaya Antonette (mga pangarap kong names to eh... lol)
Sabi naman kasi ni Gloria Nona (mother ko 'to) Olga daw coz it means HOLY in Russia--- tsk tsk hindi naman ako naging holy!!! (Kabaliktaran pa nga yata..hahaha) tapos hindi pa yata nakuntento sa isang name nilagyan pa ng Victoria. Syempre halata namang VICTORY meaning nun... pero may story behind pa din to...kasi ma-drama si mama... heheh peace, buti nlng di nag-fb mama ko... Gusto daw kasi nya na maging matalino ang anak nya kya ipinangalan nya ako dun sa all time favorite student nya na ubooooooood daw ng talino. Pero tulad nung pagiging holy daw dapat, heller hindi naman ako naging genius, pinahirapan lang talaga ako sa pagsusulat sa papel nung kindergarten ako... tsk so depressing di ba?!!!
Pero ika nga nila... mother's knows best. At ngayong of age na daw ako to see reason and logic in everything, naintindihan at natanggap ko na nga ang katotohanang... ang ganda ganda pala ng name ko! (yabang...hehehe) in short... i love it!!!
So enough of the name na...syado na palang mahaba eh, let's get to how i am as a person daw according to my fwendships, nagsurvey pa ako nito eh...hehehe echoz lng. So let me dissect what they've collectively said about me:
According to them Olga Victoria:
...Loves to joke>>corny nga lng
...Is attractive>>talaga lng hah, wala ako pera ngaun
...Is suave and caring>> yes no maybe
...Is brave and fearless>> alangan namang lampa effect
...Is firm and has leadership qualities>> tell it to my next employer
...Knows how to console others>> kinda true yata
...Is too generous and egoistic>>huh?!! egoistic? ako?!how come?!
...Takes high pride of oneself>>di ba love yourself nga..
...Is thirsty for praises>> di ah, just need to be appreciated at times
...Has extraordinary spirit>> bakit engkanto ba ako?
...Is easily angered>> di kaya...
...Becomes angry only when provoked>>eto yun true
...Is easily jealous>>hehehe i absolutely agree!
...Is Observant>> oh yeah, like 10 people at the same time
...Is careful and cautious>> di nga lng halata
...Thinks quickly>> hindi rin nabiktima ako nung giraffe eh (c/o ate grace and boss rey..hahaha)
...Has independent thoughts>> malamang hehehe
...Loves to dream>> yeah dreams of...secret
...Is talented in the arts, music and defense>>wish ko lng!
...Is sensitive but not petty>> uhmm no comment.
...Has poor resistance against illnesses>> noon yun hah!!!
...Is hasty and trusty>> so contradicting oi
...Is romantic>> hahaha bullseye!
...Is loving and caring>> syempre..hehehe
...Loves to make friends>> uu naman para madami ka-chika at ka-bonding.
So got a hint of how it is to be my friend? naku malamang ayaw nyo na...hahaha isa kasi ako sa mga me topak na tao na super kulit yung tipong hindi kayo tatantanan hangga't di kayo mapipilitang mag-yes sa request ko...hehehe domineering effect in short? naahh my friends just love it when i talk them into something, hahah charm ko na yata yun eh.. (echoz lng) but then again all my fwends couldnt and wouldnt deny the fact na first impressions doesnt really last that long, lahat kasi sila eh asiwa at ayaw sa akin noon kasi daw mataray looking, parang elitista lng daw pero once i start talking na.. ayun parang machine gun lng eh.. and admittedly naman they ended up agreeing with me when i say that I'M FRIENDLY... :) hehehe diba guys?!!! walang kokontra!!! echoz...
Let's begin first with the etymology of OLGA VICTORIA... bakit nga ba eto pangalan ko? para kasing pangalan pa lng pang-kontrabida na sa soap opera all rolled into one! pwede namang Cassandra, Alexandra or kaya Antonette (mga pangarap kong names to eh... lol)
Sabi naman kasi ni Gloria Nona (mother ko 'to) Olga daw coz it means HOLY in Russia--- tsk tsk hindi naman ako naging holy!!! (Kabaliktaran pa nga yata..hahaha) tapos hindi pa yata nakuntento sa isang name nilagyan pa ng Victoria. Syempre halata namang VICTORY meaning nun... pero may story behind pa din to...kasi ma-drama si mama... heheh peace, buti nlng di nag-fb mama ko... Gusto daw kasi nya na maging matalino ang anak nya kya ipinangalan nya ako dun sa all time favorite student nya na ubooooooood daw ng talino. Pero tulad nung pagiging holy daw dapat, heller hindi naman ako naging genius, pinahirapan lang talaga ako sa pagsusulat sa papel nung kindergarten ako... tsk so depressing di ba?!!!
Pero ika nga nila... mother's knows best. At ngayong of age na daw ako to see reason and logic in everything, naintindihan at natanggap ko na nga ang katotohanang... ang ganda ganda pala ng name ko! (yabang...hehehe) in short... i love it!!!
So enough of the name na...syado na palang mahaba eh, let's get to how i am as a person daw according to my fwendships, nagsurvey pa ako nito eh...hehehe echoz lng. So let me dissect what they've collectively said about me:
According to them Olga Victoria:
...Loves to joke>>corny nga lng
...Is attractive>>talaga lng hah, wala ako pera ngaun
...Is suave and caring>> yes no maybe
...Is brave and fearless>> alangan namang lampa effect
...Is firm and has leadership qualities>> tell it to my next employer
...Knows how to console others>> kinda true yata
...Is too generous and egoistic>>huh?!! egoistic? ako?!how come?!
...Takes high pride of oneself>>di ba love yourself nga..
...Is thirsty for praises>> di ah, just need to be appreciated at times
...Has extraordinary spirit>> bakit engkanto ba ako?
...Is easily angered>> di kaya...
...Becomes angry only when provoked>>eto yun true
...Is easily jealous>>hehehe i absolutely agree!
...Is Observant>> oh yeah, like 10 people at the same time
...Is careful and cautious>> di nga lng halata
...Thinks quickly>> hindi rin nabiktima ako nung giraffe eh (c/o ate grace and boss rey..hahaha)
...Has independent thoughts>> malamang hehehe
...Loves to dream>> yeah dreams of...secret
...Is talented in the arts, music and defense>>wish ko lng!
...Is sensitive but not petty>> uhmm no comment.
...Has poor resistance against illnesses>> noon yun hah!!!
...Is hasty and trusty>> so contradicting oi
...Is romantic>> hahaha bullseye!
...Is loving and caring>> syempre..hehehe
...Loves to make friends>> uu naman para madami ka-chika at ka-bonding.
So got a hint of how it is to be my friend? naku malamang ayaw nyo na...hahaha isa kasi ako sa mga me topak na tao na super kulit yung tipong hindi kayo tatantanan hangga't di kayo mapipilitang mag-yes sa request ko...hehehe domineering effect in short? naahh my friends just love it when i talk them into something, hahah charm ko na yata yun eh.. (echoz lng) but then again all my fwends couldnt and wouldnt deny the fact na first impressions doesnt really last that long, lahat kasi sila eh asiwa at ayaw sa akin noon kasi daw mataray looking, parang elitista lng daw pero once i start talking na.. ayun parang machine gun lng eh.. and admittedly naman they ended up agreeing with me when i say that I'M FRIENDLY... :) hehehe diba guys?!!! walang kokontra!!! echoz...
WHY DO I HAVE TO FEEL THIS PAIN?
A new day, a new start... the first thing i do is to get up from bed energized and excited for the fresh start. everything would be so light and breezy. just gonna enjoy the day. my excitement brews as i dress for work to meet my friends and colleagues. yes indeed its gonna be a wonderful day, no sign of any ominous event to happen.
Suddenly as i look into the mirror...everything began to change, as it does every single day... i hesitate whether i should go on or not, thinking, will this day be the same as the previous days? would i feel the pain again? then a voice inside me would whisper in encouragement: " you can endure it though"... i ask myself in response, why should i subject myself to such useless pain again?! why not go the easy way? but i know deep within me that i should and i would go through the pain each day until it goes away, until i become used to it like a puppet on a string...
i sigh in resignation...as i stare into the mirror wide-eyed, i begin to notice a teardrop threatening to fall... yes it is such a vicious cycle... i can feel it now, as the teardrop made its way down my face,i know a stream of tears would follow and i cannot stop it anymore.
now im crying once again, such agony i cannot begin to imagine...though i dont want to cry im as helpless as a wee little baby, curled on the corner of the room waiting for the pain to ebb away. now every thing i see begins to blur as torrents of tears roll down... why go through this? all i want is to enjoy and see everything as it is seen by all the others, why cant i do that without first experiencing so much suffering...why....
after a moment that feels as if eternity, my tears dried, my vision cleared, i slowly rise up and look into the mirror once more. then i glanced at the clock... and i gasped in shock!!!
sh*t!!!! 30 minutes na yun?
bakit ba kasi ang hirap hirap mag-suot ng contact lens!!! Sus retouch ulit. Ayan mag-mamadali na naman ako papuntang work... tsk...
haiyyy mag-eyeglasses na nga lng kasi eh...ayaw kasi mag-go the easy way.
Suddenly as i look into the mirror...everything began to change, as it does every single day... i hesitate whether i should go on or not, thinking, will this day be the same as the previous days? would i feel the pain again? then a voice inside me would whisper in encouragement: " you can endure it though"... i ask myself in response, why should i subject myself to such useless pain again?! why not go the easy way? but i know deep within me that i should and i would go through the pain each day until it goes away, until i become used to it like a puppet on a string...
i sigh in resignation...as i stare into the mirror wide-eyed, i begin to notice a teardrop threatening to fall... yes it is such a vicious cycle... i can feel it now, as the teardrop made its way down my face,i know a stream of tears would follow and i cannot stop it anymore.
now im crying once again, such agony i cannot begin to imagine...though i dont want to cry im as helpless as a wee little baby, curled on the corner of the room waiting for the pain to ebb away. now every thing i see begins to blur as torrents of tears roll down... why go through this? all i want is to enjoy and see everything as it is seen by all the others, why cant i do that without first experiencing so much suffering...why....
after a moment that feels as if eternity, my tears dried, my vision cleared, i slowly rise up and look into the mirror once more. then i glanced at the clock... and i gasped in shock!!!
sh*t!!!! 30 minutes na yun?
bakit ba kasi ang hirap hirap mag-suot ng contact lens!!! Sus retouch ulit. Ayan mag-mamadali na naman ako papuntang work... tsk...
haiyyy mag-eyeglasses na nga lng kasi eh...ayaw kasi mag-go the easy way.
WINDS OF CHANGE
It has been such a long time since the time I had time to reflect on the things I did. To try and see which things I did superbly and which things i failed miserably. Suddenly i realized im losing myself in the hustle and bustle of the career i’ve chosen to take. Though right now i am admittedly very happy with my life but then again i also admit that i havent had the time to pour out my emotions through my best outlet, that is writing and composing. it is in this that i am able to really shell out all the emotions i have deep inside. and now i am given the chance to use this outlet again, especially now.
Being alone in a place where you dont have your good old friends would really let you contemplate on things, especially those things when you had the best days of your life with your friends and mentors. ive always thought that i know how to choose good friends, and looking back, i laugh and say, yeah i have the best group of friends ever, and i thank God for giving them to me. they are those who will be with you through your ups and downs and support you without a moment’s hesitation. Sila yung papatay ng tao just for the sake of a friend. And i really miss them so much.
In those long grueling years of trying to cope up with my studies, I had my closest friends, my best buds through thick and thin, through the academe and the world of fun whom i can rely on. they were the ones who are very much willing to listen to my whinings and complaints, very open to my outbursts about different things, and likewise i was one of those very much willing to bail them out from any misadventure they may be involved in. In short, those were the times when we had each other at arms reach, we have each other just one call away. In a snap we’d all be huddled together and plan our next move, may it be in mischief or in a cause for what we believe in. Those times seemed an eternity away already, and I do miss those a lot… painfully missed it.
Just as sudden as lightning, we were moving on and taking different paths in our lives. Yes we do communicate, but the change was like turning at 360 degree angle. a total shift in our lives. i am happy though that each one of us are working out our own successful career, but how i miss those times when we were laughing and strolling out in the malls together. When can we do those things again? no one knows. But i am hoping that even if the winds of change may have blown us apart and is still blowing us farther away from each other each day, may the bonds of our friendship stay strong and may it be enough to surpass the times that we will be away from each other. and instead of estrangement, may we be able to cultivate our friendship in each other’s heart for as long as eternity.
Being alone in a place where you dont have your good old friends would really let you contemplate on things, especially those things when you had the best days of your life with your friends and mentors. ive always thought that i know how to choose good friends, and looking back, i laugh and say, yeah i have the best group of friends ever, and i thank God for giving them to me. they are those who will be with you through your ups and downs and support you without a moment’s hesitation. Sila yung papatay ng tao just for the sake of a friend. And i really miss them so much.
In those long grueling years of trying to cope up with my studies, I had my closest friends, my best buds through thick and thin, through the academe and the world of fun whom i can rely on. they were the ones who are very much willing to listen to my whinings and complaints, very open to my outbursts about different things, and likewise i was one of those very much willing to bail them out from any misadventure they may be involved in. In short, those were the times when we had each other at arms reach, we have each other just one call away. In a snap we’d all be huddled together and plan our next move, may it be in mischief or in a cause for what we believe in. Those times seemed an eternity away already, and I do miss those a lot… painfully missed it.
Just as sudden as lightning, we were moving on and taking different paths in our lives. Yes we do communicate, but the change was like turning at 360 degree angle. a total shift in our lives. i am happy though that each one of us are working out our own successful career, but how i miss those times when we were laughing and strolling out in the malls together. When can we do those things again? no one knows. But i am hoping that even if the winds of change may have blown us apart and is still blowing us farther away from each other each day, may the bonds of our friendship stay strong and may it be enough to surpass the times that we will be away from each other. and instead of estrangement, may we be able to cultivate our friendship in each other’s heart for as long as eternity.
Saturday, August 13, 2011
The Answers
How can I say goodbye when I don’t want to?
When a circumstance happens that your personality might not like, it is imperative that you stop fighting what the universe is showing you, and start to look for the blessing in disguise, as well as the higher reason behind it.
When you truly learn to go with the flow, in the moment, you will gain a great deal of trust. What you will ultimately trust is that it is happening for your highest good and for the highest good of the other person. You might not see the higher reason at the current time, but you definitely will in hindsight.
You do not own another person. He or she can do whatever he or she wants to do. How could you not say goodbye if that is being asked of you? This is the root of desirous attachment. Your desires might be too attached to the other person in a way that is not healthy. The only way to release this, as with anything else, is with tremendous love and compassion for you and for the other person.
Look at what good can possibly come out of the situation. Look for what might very well be for each of your highest good. Replace “want” with “prefer”. You “prefer” to trust that there are higher reasons behind this situation and what you “want” might not be possible at this time. It might be possible in the future, or never. Release that grip with a flow of unconditional love. This will serve each of you far better than holding on for dear life. As a matter of fact, a “dear life” is what you ultimately “want” both for you and the other person. Allow it to be what it is. As soon as you begin to “allow” then you will begin to feel inner peace, and the pain will vanish.
2. What if I love someone, and we are no longer together but he/she is moving away?
The greatest thing you can do is go into your deepest heart, that place where pure unconditional love resides, and wish that person the greatest life that any human being can possibly have. If you are able, you can let the person know that you love him/her, and that he or she can always call you if they ever want to. Then, with pure, transparent love, view the other person the way you would view a butterfly, and allow him or her to fly away freely, while you simultaneously send him or her your love and purest good wishes.
Sometimes people need to move away to have a fresh start. Sometimes they need to separate from the past so they can grow, heal, transform and bloom into their highest expression of self in this lifetime. Sometimes they need to re-create an entire new life. If you truly and genuinely love this person, you have to realize that it requires a great amount of self love to be able to allow another to go away so that you do not feel tortured inside, but that you feel love and inner peace.
Begin to view your love as the gift that it is, and view yourself with tremendous pure love, without condition. This means that there is no condition that validates how lovable or worthy you are. And, this includes whether or not a person is in your life.
It is vital that you realize that you are not saying goodbye to the love you feel, you are merely saying goodbye to the old circumstances. If you have not been together, chances are great that each of you needed to grow and perhaps could not do this while remaining physically together.
View this new circumstance as a positive experience for greater self love, for each of you! See the good in it. It is there, and if you look for it, you will find it! Under all circumstances, find the love in the situation, and how this is serving as a positive catalyst in each of your lives. This will bring you into a great deal of trust, and the pain will be replaced by unconditionally loving acceptance. This in turn leads to a great deal of inner peace.
3. Can you please explain why some people keep returning to each other after repeated break-ups?
There is only one thing in this universe that can never be destroyed and this is pure love. When two people deeply love each other and have repeated break-ups this is a clear indication that each person has growing to do, or they, just like everyone else on earth, would not be in this life to begin with.
When two people are together and they trigger each of their deepest growth issues, deep rooted feelings will naturally come to the surface. Then the ego takes its typical “fight or flight” position. Some people break up when what they are feeling is triggering so much inside, that they just want to get away. In this case, the ego has won its temporary battle. However, as time passes, and each person has solitude to so some deep soul searching, they discover that they did, in fact, have some growing to do on the personal level. They even realize that the other person was a wonderful catalyst for this growth. The love comes back to the surface, and they somehow get back in touch with each other because the love truly never died!
Some people call this a “love/hate, can’t live with him/her, can live without him/her” relationship. Personally, I do not agree with this view, as it is giving a surface excuse that labels something far deeper and wiser. I would call it profound love, growth and realization that has phases of togetherness and separation when needed for the growth of each person.
Relationships that are this deep have clearly come into our lives for higher reasons, and they are all related to growth. First for self, possibly to learn how to be authentic in a relationship, and ultimately it serves a positive purpose for many others.
If you find that you have been apart many times, and have returned to each other many times, I would venture to say that you have each grown tremendously as a result. Would you agree with this view? This is “why”. It is all for growth. The other reason “why” is because pure love never dies, ever. So when you are together love and treasure every moment. When you are apart, love yourself while you bring your greatest contributions into this world. Under all circumstances give yourself and the other person pure, transparent love, while you trust that everything really is in divine order, and working out for each of your highest good.
4. How do I stop thinking about the past and hoping for the future?
Your mind is going to have thoughts and memories about the past. You might hear a song that brings back certain memories. You might come across something or some place that reminds you of the person you love. There are two key components to this.
The first one is allowing the thoughts to come to the surface instead of trying to get rid of them and block them out. They might trigger a lot of feelings and it is important that you acknowledge their existence. You can realize and learn a lot from what is coming into your mind from the past. You can grow and learn from these past memories. You can see how much you have already grown, and you can cherish the times you had in the past for all of the good it did bring into your life, even if some of those times were difficult. In this case, allow, acknowledge and come into your truth about what your thoughts and feelings are trying to get you to see, feel and recognize. You can have wonderful realizations if you take this approach and it is entirely empowering!
The second disempowering aspect of thinking about the past is dwelling in it and wishing it were the same. This takes you out of the now moment, when your creativity, and creatively thinking by looking for a higher reason as to why you are feeling this way will serve you so much better.
You cannot re-do the past. It is behind you. You can only go forward from this point one moment at a time. So if a past memory comes up, allow it to! What is it trying to tell you? How do you really feel about it? Come into your truth. Then, go with what you are getting. If the person you love contacts you, be REAL! If the person you love never contacts you again, trust and accept what is, and with a great amount of loving compassion for yourself, focus on what you can experience or create in this now moment.
The only time it will serve you to think about the past is when you truly want to learn and grow from your past experiences. Trying to bring back the past is like trying to bring back a breeze that passed by. But, you can always have a new breeze come your way. It could be the same person, or a new person. It could be many experiences you came into this life to express. The greatest thing you can do with your memories of the past is give them a lot of love, because they did serve you well, especially if they were difficult. If you are dwelling in a negative manner, then this is hindering your growth. Ask yourself what you have learned, and what means the most to you. Above all, trust that you would not be where you are today if those experiences were not in your life, and you are not meant to keep re-living the events of your past. You are here to create new, positive and life enriching ones. Can they be with the same person? That is up to each person’s free will and choice. You can trust one thing, however, and that is that if it is meant to be for your highest good, it will be, no matter which way it turns out.
In a nutshell, view the past with love and appreciation. Then you can take all of the growth you have made and create, live, be and express so much more.
Hoping for the future is a complete waste of time. Why? Because it is detracting from this now moment when all creation exists! Pull yourself into NOW, and you will feel guided from within. Life will begin to flow smoothly, effortlessly, and everything will fall into place for your highest good. If you could only realize how profound this now moment is, when events happen that you would call a miracle, you will cease to live projecting into the future, and you will create everything from your heart NOW. There is nothing more pure and positive, and it all comes from your heart. TRUST that everything is unfolding according to your highest good. As you begin to get centered in this now moment, go with what your inner guidance and gut feelings are telling you! ALWAYS follow your inner guidance. THAT is what will create your “future” and it will result in the greatest life you could possibly have.
5. What do I do with all of the love I still feel for that person?
Allow it to be there. If you try to fight the love, try to get rid of it, and try to avoid it, I can pretty much guarantee that it is like trying to fight, get rid of and avoid the fact that sunlight exists.
If you feel love, then honor and acknowledge those feelings! They are letting you know your truth. Just by doing that alone will simultaneously bring you into your truth, and will stop the internal battle of your ego and your heart. What is so terrible about feeling love? Only what you believe can harm you, and those beliefs must be uprooted so you can at least feel your truth. Then, look at what is happening now. If you can, or wish to get in touch with the person you love, do so! If you know or have been asked to leave that person alone, then honor and respect what he or she asked of you. This must be done with purity of motive, with love and respect for yourself and for the other person.
If you are not able to be in contact with that person, simply feel your feelings, and create the best that you can out of them! The key here is to realize that it is okay to feel love for someone, however, it must be a “transparent” love with purity and zero “tactics” run by ego to push anything based on an agenda, an ego agenda. This “agenda’ includes denial of your feelings. That is EGO in its prime.
Alternatively, you can write a book, a song or create something positive for others. Most importantly, you can love yourself for having the capacity to love! This is a GIFT in life, and it is one of the greatest gifts you can ever feel and express in any positive manner.
When you think of that special person, in your mind, wish him or her pure love, freely. When you are giving that from your heart, the other person will feel it. As long as it is pure, meaning that you truly wish the best for that person, you will then be able to bring out the best you have within you. This can also help many other people who are feeling the same way. How do I know this? You might wonder, so I will give you the answer. I recently experienced all of this, and the pure love remains beneath it all. I now trust that there really IS a higher reason for everything that happens.
I now know that there is perfect orchestration in this universe and everything is unfolding for the highest good of all, every step of the way. As I trust I learned to stop fighting it all, because there are precious gifts within every circumstance – I had to first learn to look for them, instead of what my ego used to either be attached to or avoid. I know that pure love never dies, and I had to stop trying to get rid of it. I had to ALLOW it and create the best that I can from it. At the same time, from the most pure place within, I do wish that very special person the greatest life any human being can ever have. I also wish this for you!
EMOTINAL BABBLINGS
_bakit kaya pagdating sa love, yung kabaliktaran mo ang napupunta sayo?
_bakit yung matino napupunta sa bad?
_bakit yung palaging bigo, papupunta sa naglalaro?
_bakit yung mabait napupunta sa pasaway?
_alam mo kasi, pag ibinigay sayo ang katulad mo… hindi ka matututo magbago para sa isang tao…
_di mo malalaman ang mali sayo, at pag walang nabago sayo, di mo malalaman kung nagmamahal ka nga ng totoo.
I received this quote just a little before dawn today…kahit punong-puno pa ako ng laway at morning glory (eewww) at super half asleep pa ako dahil sa pagod at san mig light, ang utak ko eh talagang rumatsada na nang pag-analyze sa message na eto. Di ko alam kung bakit… its either natatamaan ako or siguro wala lng, trip lng ng utak kong mag-isip well anyway, basta right at this instance ang dami pumapasok sa isip ko na realizations and I know pag hindi ko isinulat yun eh mawawala na yun totally pag natulog ulit ako. Kaya ayun open agad ng laptop at type ng bilis to the max, yung tipong pwede nang ma-ticketan for overspeeding. so ayun may excuse na ako if may mga wrong grammar ako ditetch huh…hehehe
Una kong realization was, why do we always have to question the experiences/ situations we are in or those we have already been through, whether it is in the arena of love, career, academe or friendship? Halos kasi puro ganun yung laman ng message na yun sa taas oh, pansin nyo ba? But most perplexing to me is kung bakit nagtatanong lng tayo pag negative yung nararanasan natin, bakit pag nanalo ba sa lotto do we question ourselves “hey dapat nga ba akong manalo nito?” or when we get promoted do we ask if worthy nga ba tayong ma-promote? Pero pag negative experience na eh andami nang barrage of questions na nabubuo sa utak natin like yung sa abovementioned na text quote. Im not saying na mali eto, but then again dapat kasi balanced yun eh, we should not only focus on contemplating the why’s of the negativities in our lives but also the why’s of positive things that we encounter should be also scrutinized with equality so that we, as individuals of rational thinking, would know which things we are doing right and which things we are doing wrong. Kasi if puro na lang yung negative side, we tend to be so pessimistic and this would lead to becoming a person who is easily depressed, if puro naman positive side then we become overly egoistic and prideful which is actually dreadful. Ayy naku I hope im making a point here…
Second point na na-realize ko is about the person as an individual in connection to the process of personal change. Sabi sa quote “alam mo kasi, pag ibinigay sayo ang katulad mo… hindi ka matututo magbago para sa isang tao…” I really wouldn’t agree with this statement. Do we need another person to change us from within? I say, we don’t. You know why, because we are INDIVIDUALS. Yes I would admit na no man is an island pa rin naman…but to change our habits and mannerisms with the help of others? I doubt it, maybe we can expect help from people to poke us in the right direction of change, but the process of changing… it’s of our own free will, our own prerogative to change it. If a person truly wants to change then he should do it for his own sake because he wants to and not because he is being dictated by others. Sino ba naman kasi ang mas nakakakilala sa mga sarili natin kundi tayo mismo diba…?
another thing pa na napagnilaynilayan ko is yung part ng quote na sabi “alam mo kasi, pag ibinigay sayo ang katulad mo… hindi ka matututo magbago para sa isang tao…” it implies kasi na matututo ka if na-experience mo na yung bagay na yan kasi kelangang mag depend pa yung learnings mo dun sa isang tao na ma-mimeet mo thus it will depend on the experiences the two of you would and could make together, as in direct experience hah, bakit diba pwedeng mapanalaminan ang mga nangyayari sa ibang tao? kaya nga may word na OBSERVE diba… kasi pwede tayong mag-observe sa ibang tao. pwede namang makita mo sa situation nang ibang tao ang consequences ng mga ginawa nya ah, so then we could rationalize na…ah ok pwede ganito mangyari, pwedeng ganito kalabasan nito if gagawin ko to, so makikita na natin yung different angles nun kahit din na natin i-experience yun and then we could apply it in our lives. kaya lng minsan gusto talaga natin ng first hand experience tapos after everything else, if mag-fail na or negative yung results iiyak iyak na, or minsan i-blame pa sa iba..tsk cant we take accountability for our own actions?!! kelangan ba talaga may escape goats pa. exasperating to hah. hay naku dala lng talaga siguro to ng kaantukan at dami ng nainom ko sa xmas party knina, but anyway, borlog na nga muna ulit ako kasi baka dream pa eto.hehehe
HOW DO YOU DESCRIBE OLGA TO A FRIEND WHO DOES'NT KNOW HER?!!! ;p by Holy Victory
WARNING: para sa mga bisaya...enjoy the read...sa mga di nakakaintindi, ipa-translate nyo nlng... :p
SCENE 1.
2 persons (friends) walking on the street. ACTION!
person 1 (P1): bai, ka-ila mo ni ....
person 2 (P2): o. nagka-ila mi ana niya sa-una.
P1: a! mao ba?! uy, gwapa na cya?
P2: ummmm.... ngano ask man ka?
P1: gwapa ba?
P2: ha.... ummm.... mo matter jud nimo ang answer?
P1: pagklaro gud!
P2: ummm... lingaw na cya kaubanon kng ma suod mo...
P1: aaa.... mao ba... unsa pa?
P2: ki-at na cya... badlungon bah...
P1: unsa pa?
P2: bata - bata - on...
P1: nya, gwapa ba?
P2: ha.... kanang mo inom sad na cya...
P1: aa... unsa'y tirada?
P2: bsag unsa lng gud. OK rman na cya... d bya na cya pa-sosyal... mo inom gani na'g gin kung wa'y la-in...
P1: yi! ka cheap uy! ew... like, so ewww....
P2: hoy! grabe sad ka... taga USC bya na cya pag collegel... (unsa'y naa?)
P1: aa!! carolinian diay... aw! sus! chicks jud... (nyohohoho...)
P2: tanan diay taga USC chicks? pasagad lang ka!
P1: ana bya jud na... naa bya rep-u mga taga USC...
P2: a, lahi ni. taga USC na mura'g taga lasang man ni cya...
P1: topyuk man ka sturya uy. pagklaro gud. wa jud nimo tubaga ang pinaka basic na question.
P2: asa gud adto?
P1: gwapa ba na cya?
P2: aww.... kana diay... umm... (thinks...) ani man gud, lisod man gud i-describe.... (hadlok maka sala for telling lies...)
P1: unsa ma'y naka lisod ana uy?! pila ra gud pag ingon ug yes or no...
P2: ay, diko ganahan ug mga ani nga pangutana.... judgmental kaayo... kayasa, magka ila ra bitaw gihapon mo... ikaw nlng gud tubag sa imo question...
P1: a... cge, ani nlng... kinsa man imo ma think nga look alike niya nga tao. artista o common friend nato?
P2: a! si kris aquino...
P1: a! arti diay. pero puti-on nga medyo cute kay puti-on nga medyo cute bya na si kris aquino.
P2: ikaw ba! wapa gani ko mahuman. imo man ko putlon uy. patiwasa ko.
P1: sori... sori... cge padayon... mura cya'g si kris aquino nga...
P2: kris aquino ba! kadtong iya role nga gi play kay sa sukob katong niambak na sya sa tore!!! kadto nga kris aquino nya gipatambok pa jud! bogits man ka! END.
i can be so many THINGS mao wa na ko naka ila kung kinsa jud ko. OK? like i said, i hate questions that ask me to talk about myself. like during JOB INTERVIEWS... (i've posted something like this before pero akong gi erase....) and SELF INTRODUCTIONS (oh crap!!!).... hehehe
SCENE 1.
2 persons (friends) walking on the street. ACTION!
person 1 (P1): bai, ka-ila mo ni ....
person 2 (P2): o. nagka-ila mi ana niya sa-una.
P1: a! mao ba?! uy, gwapa na cya?
P2: ummmm.... ngano ask man ka?
P1: gwapa ba?
P2: ha.... ummm.... mo matter jud nimo ang answer?
P1: pagklaro gud!
P2: ummm... lingaw na cya kaubanon kng ma suod mo...
P1: aaa.... mao ba... unsa pa?
P2: ki-at na cya... badlungon bah...
P1: unsa pa?
P2: bata - bata - on...
P1: nya, gwapa ba?
P2: ha.... kanang mo inom sad na cya...
P1: aa... unsa'y tirada?
P2: bsag unsa lng gud. OK rman na cya... d bya na cya pa-sosyal... mo inom gani na'g gin kung wa'y la-in...
P1: yi! ka cheap uy! ew... like, so ewww....
P2: hoy! grabe sad ka... taga USC bya na cya pag collegel... (unsa'y naa?)
P1: aa!! carolinian diay... aw! sus! chicks jud... (nyohohoho...)
P2: tanan diay taga USC chicks? pasagad lang ka!
P1: ana bya jud na... naa bya rep-u mga taga USC...
P2: a, lahi ni. taga USC na mura'g taga lasang man ni cya...
P1: topyuk man ka sturya uy. pagklaro gud. wa jud nimo tubaga ang pinaka basic na question.
P2: asa gud adto?
P1: gwapa ba na cya?
P2: aww.... kana diay... umm... (thinks...) ani man gud, lisod man gud i-describe.... (hadlok maka sala for telling lies...)
P1: unsa ma'y naka lisod ana uy?! pila ra gud pag ingon ug yes or no...
P2: ay, diko ganahan ug mga ani nga pangutana.... judgmental kaayo... kayasa, magka ila ra bitaw gihapon mo... ikaw nlng gud tubag sa imo question...
P1: a... cge, ani nlng... kinsa man imo ma think nga look alike niya nga tao. artista o common friend nato?
P2: a! si kris aquino...
P1: a! arti diay. pero puti-on nga medyo cute kay puti-on nga medyo cute bya na si kris aquino.
P2: ikaw ba! wapa gani ko mahuman. imo man ko putlon uy. patiwasa ko.
P1: sori... sori... cge padayon... mura cya'g si kris aquino nga...
P2: kris aquino ba! kadtong iya role nga gi play kay sa sukob katong niambak na sya sa tore!!! kadto nga kris aquino nya gipatambok pa jud! bogits man ka! END.
i can be so many THINGS mao wa na ko naka ila kung kinsa jud ko. OK? like i said, i hate questions that ask me to talk about myself. like during JOB INTERVIEWS... (i've posted something like this before pero akong gi erase....) and SELF INTRODUCTIONS (oh crap!!!).... hehehe
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