A new day, a new start... the first thing i do is to get up from bed energized and excited for the fresh start. everything would be so light and breezy. just gonna enjoy the day. my excitement brews as i dress for work to meet my friends and colleagues. yes indeed its gonna be a wonderful day, no sign of any ominous event to happen.
Suddenly as i look into the mirror...everything began to change, as it does every single day... i hesitate whether i should go on or not, thinking, will this day be the same as the previous days? would i feel the pain again? then a voice inside me would whisper in encouragement: " you can endure it though"... i ask myself in response, why should i subject myself to such useless pain again?! why not go the easy way? but i know deep within me that i should and i would go through the pain each day until it goes away, until i become used to it like a puppet on a string...
i sigh in resignation...as i stare into the mirror wide-eyed, i begin to notice a teardrop threatening to fall... yes it is such a vicious cycle... i can feel it now, as the teardrop made its way down my face,i know a stream of tears would follow and i cannot stop it anymore.
now im crying once again, such agony i cannot begin to imagine...though i dont want to cry im as helpless as a wee little baby, curled on the corner of the room waiting for the pain to ebb away. now every thing i see begins to blur as torrents of tears roll down... why go through this? all i want is to enjoy and see everything as it is seen by all the others, why cant i do that without first experiencing so much suffering...why....
after a moment that feels as if eternity, my tears dried, my vision cleared, i slowly rise up and look into the mirror once more. then i glanced at the clock... and i gasped in shock!!!
sh*t!!!! 30 minutes na yun?
bakit ba kasi ang hirap hirap mag-suot ng contact lens!!! Sus retouch ulit. Ayan mag-mamadali na naman ako papuntang work... tsk...
haiyyy mag-eyeglasses na nga lng kasi eh...ayaw kasi mag-go the easy way.
Suddenly as i look into the mirror...everything began to change, as it does every single day... i hesitate whether i should go on or not, thinking, will this day be the same as the previous days? would i feel the pain again? then a voice inside me would whisper in encouragement: " you can endure it though"... i ask myself in response, why should i subject myself to such useless pain again?! why not go the easy way? but i know deep within me that i should and i would go through the pain each day until it goes away, until i become used to it like a puppet on a string...
i sigh in resignation...as i stare into the mirror wide-eyed, i begin to notice a teardrop threatening to fall... yes it is such a vicious cycle... i can feel it now, as the teardrop made its way down my face,i know a stream of tears would follow and i cannot stop it anymore.
now im crying once again, such agony i cannot begin to imagine...though i dont want to cry im as helpless as a wee little baby, curled on the corner of the room waiting for the pain to ebb away. now every thing i see begins to blur as torrents of tears roll down... why go through this? all i want is to enjoy and see everything as it is seen by all the others, why cant i do that without first experiencing so much suffering...why....
after a moment that feels as if eternity, my tears dried, my vision cleared, i slowly rise up and look into the mirror once more. then i glanced at the clock... and i gasped in shock!!!
sh*t!!!! 30 minutes na yun?
bakit ba kasi ang hirap hirap mag-suot ng contact lens!!! Sus retouch ulit. Ayan mag-mamadali na naman ako papuntang work... tsk...
haiyyy mag-eyeglasses na nga lng kasi eh...ayaw kasi mag-go the easy way.
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